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I'm so upset right now. I'm upset in that horrible apathetic way that I get when I feel like I have no control over my life.

I got my stimulus check. I paid some bills. I had $50 leftover. So I went to Wendy's, then bought a new shirt at Target, and filled up the car with gas. I came home and another bill that I had forgotten about went through a week late and now I've overdrawn and I've been charged over $100 in late fees. That's without today's purchases. I made a deposit and I'm hoping that some miracle will occur and the money will show up tomorrow morning and I won't 4 more bounced checks tomorrow.

My paycheck from Stratford never came this week. They forgot to process it. I shouldn't be broke! I should have extra money! But instead, I'm in the hole!!! I am so frustrated right now!

Life is going to be fine. I am teaching 5 classes next quarter and that's some good money, but in the meantime, I've got to swallow the fact that have $100 less than I thought I did and there's the possibility that I'll have lost another $160. I think I'm going to throw up. I've got to change my life.