Depressed--need to laugh...

This is Cartman killing someone from 1776. It makes me laugh.



And this is naked Cartman.

I've been really tired and bummed out all day.

I just found out my dad is getting a divorce from his wife of 13 years. It's no exaggeration to say that I have spent more time with her than him over the past decade. She's wonderful and I'm ticked off.

So I stayed in all day because I had 0 obligations. I didn't go to church. I just watched Friday Night Lights, Doctor Who and now I'm watching South Park. And the South Park episodes are cracking me up.

I feel fat and horrible. I get to go and see my dad this weekend at my cousin's wedding. My cousin's baby is absolutely gorgeous. Here is a picture of her holding her baby girl. I want a little red headed girl....

But no... instead I'm alone. And life sucks. And I hate it.

And I'm going to go to the wedding where all my family members will try to "help me" by pointing out all the ways I could improve myself so that I can catch a man...

"You know Eve, have you considered marrying a guy who isn't mormon?"
"You know Eve, most men just don't want to be with a woman of your size... not on a long term basis anyway."
"So why exactly did you get your masters if you're not using it now?"

Kill. Me. Now.

All Shook Up!

We opened our new show this weekend!

It's been such a joy performing in this show. It's a fun, happy musical with a dance that involves old ladies doing a kick line with walkers.

It's beyond hilarious.

I love doing community theatre because it gives me a chance to really work with teenagers and help them to feel better about themselves. I love the kids and the adults that I'm working with. I love that I'm able to share love with them every night and I remember the profound affect that the older peeps in the casts had on me when I was a teenager. I love that I get to share that same love with others now. It's happy times.

If you're in Utah--go to www.midvaletheatre.com and get your tickets!

We're playing this weekend and the next two weekends. May 6-May 21st or something like that--(we close third weekend, Saturday night).

Show time starts at 7. Matinees at 2 on Saturdays. Thursday, Friday, Saturday.

Come see the show! I get to sing a fantastic solo!

A happier life

Life is good right now.

I'm still not very good at it, but I feel like I'm in a better position than I was a year ago.

This is strange to say since my world has completely flipped on it's head since last year.

It's difficult to describe why things were not so hot last year...

I had a job I loved and I made good money. Ya da.... boring.

But I felt like I couldn't set up roots. I couldn't make a home for myself. I couldn't make a life for myself. Everything was so temporary. Every ten weeks I had a new work assignment, with a new paycheck, new classes, etc. Every ten weeks I'd bide my time to find out if I still had a decent living or not. After trying to get benefits for 3 years, I knew I'd never get them if I stayed there.

And now, I'm in Utah. I am near family and able to support them in their different pursuits. I am in a great job and I finally have a 9-5 schedule so I can do shows at night! In just a couple of weeks I will hit my 90 day probation and I'll have benefits at work!

I feel like I'm finally in a good place. I can set up roots! I can bloom in this place!

For my future, I'd like to work hard everyday for my company, continue to work in the theatre and soon become active in the community. I'd like to serve on various boards and in a few years run for office.

Meanwhile, I just need to get through the next few days without keeling over and dying!

Tomorrow, I work from 9-5, (which always ends up being 9-6) and then I'm off to my cousin's performance in the opera, then Saturday I'm rehearsing all day before performing in a talent show that night.

I am grateful for energy drinks. And now I should go to bed.

A boring post about Sleeping

I need to start blogging more regularly again. I'm going to!

This morning, I called in sick because I had to pick up my brother and his friends from the airport. When calling in--you reach an automated system. At the end of the call it says,

Press 3 if you want an automated pick me up.

I pressed 3.

The voice said something to this effect:

We're sorry you're not feeling well, but it'll be all right. Get out from under the covers. The sun will peak through the clouds and everything will be fine! We need you! You're an important part of this company!

I love my new job.

My little brother went to NYC this past week with the BYU Model United Nations team and they took everything! It was great hearing about his trip!

I went home and crashed. I slept all day.

I'm exhausted!

Six hours later, I woke up and went to a ward dinner.

And now I'm home.

My word, what a boring post!

But hey--I wrote!