Tuesday, October 15, 2013

My Brain

Saturday morning, I kept thinking of things I wanted to get done...as I settled in on the couch to watch this...

I've never seen it before. No time like the present.

After watching a couple of episodes, I decided to listen to this book on tape.

You'll note the title... Delivered from Distraction... Distraction...

While listening to the book, I decided to take a bath.

I don't know what I was doing as the water filled the bath, but by the time I got into the bath, it wasn't very full and the water was warmish. I realized the pluggy thingy wasn't plugging all the way so the warm water was draining away. I thought I got in pretty quickly, but I guess I didn't.  It could be that my upstairs neighbors used all the hot water, but I really think I just got seriously sidetracked. But I can't even imagine how.


I thought it was noon.

So I took my sweet time figuring out what to wear and generally dawdling.

All the while, my phone was playing this book about distraction.

I finally looked at a clock and realized that it wasn't noon, it was actually 2pm.

I was not in fact delivered from distraction, I was distracted by a book about distraction.

I ran out the door and headed to Midvale Main Street Theatre to see their children's production of Alice in Wonderland.

I was overwhelmed by cute.

There is nothing cuter than a tiny Alice tip toeing through dancing little flowers.


I know it's not kosher, but I took a couple pictures without the flash on.

I couldn't help it.

I don't know whether I actually have ADD or not.

I got good grades in school. Frankly though, I had a mother who understood how to keep education exciting for all of us. School was about learning. Learning is exciting.  I remember having one history teacher who would send me to the library to read and research for special projects. And I've always taught myself how to make less interesting things interesting by placing weight on other people's reactions, on the ways that arguments are delivered, on whether a person in the back gets it or not, etc. These are tricks to learning how to enjoy learning. We all do them. So, am I really good at functioning with ADD--or am I blessed to not have ADD? I don't know. I'm generally too distracted by everything going on to really sit down and figure it out.

(cue snare drum.)

Whether I have it or not--I like my brain.

A few years ago, I figured out that I am depressed, but I just know good tricks to deal with depression. I am not on any meds right now, but when things become too difficult to handle with just the tools of the trade, I am a big proponent of medicinal help.

I have a HUGE testimony in learning and using tools to help. I believe medicine should supplement life skills, but I prioritize the implementation of life skills over medicine. I'm not against medicine at all--but I am against taking drugs WITHOUT learning life skills.

Make sense?

One thing about blogging regularly is you can see my ups and downs mapped out over the past year. I struggle with brain stuff. But I genuinely like my brain.

Today, I am grateful for adorable children singing and dancing. I am grateful for Firefly. I am grateful for good books. And I am grateful for my brain.


Sheri Lee Burnett said...

And I am grateful for your blog!! Thanks Eve!!!

Eve said...

You are a sweetie. Thank you!

Salmon Tolman Family said...

I totally get you. I love this post as you dissect your brain waves and thoughts!

Eve said...

We are soul sisters Kala!